Rant, cause I just can't hold it in anymore.

Ok, so some honesty. You may or may not know that I moved to Egypt for the revolution. My saying at the time, was, ‘all hands on deck. Egypt needs us all.' We were in a time of incredible upheaval, it was a chance at true justice, or so my idealistic mind thought at the time. I moved here, I worked for a better Egypt in the ways that I could. I went from being an organizer of protests and a speaker to the media, a representative for the right to vote abroad, the videos from the US came from my living room, to a head count, a person sitting in a room. We won the right to vote from abroad, just as we realized that the entire revolution had been hijacked, 'interrupted' as a friend once said. But we are now in more than an interruption. We are in a full scale reversal where people are being executed, EXECUTED, without cause or trial. We are living in a land where we can no longer speak. Whether it is our truth or our various concerns, we cannot speak. We see that 500 tons of phosphate sunk in the Nile, our drinking water, we don’t speak. We see that a new New Cairo is being built for the billions that could make Cairo livable for the 22-25 million people that live here, we do not speak. We hear that 25-30% of our power will be derived from coal, and we do not speak. We can’t, because what do they do who those that do? As of today, we know, we get hanged, killed, tried without trial, killed without justice. We watch Morsi, a bad and illegitimate president, get sentenced to death. Why, illegitimate? Because the revolution was stolen from the start. Do we need a review?  Do we need to look at what happened, once upon a time, long ago, when a dostor (constitutional referendum) was held by the Supreme Council of Armed Forces? Those who “safeguarded” the revolution into its transition. Who allowed accused felons of the former regime to run against new candidates in an election that never should have happened?

And wondered why he won? Because he promised to safeguard the revolution while really, he was only using the words of the revolution to get his party in power. Isn’t this what we see all over the world? People who get into power on promises and then disobey them as they serve those with the money, those with the power. Look at Obama. He made a thousand promises to the American people and what has he done, everything he didn’t promise, he has done abhorrently. He has ordered more drone strikes and been chief of more wars than any President (maybe not, but it seems that way in the land of the WWIII that we aren’t calling by name). But, he has reformed healthcare, and immigration, he is working towards leading a legacy where he did what he promised. A duty to his people, undone by the ills of holding the position of the Presidency, proving that the likes of Monsanto and Nestle really do run the world. But that, is an unmeant digression, I just haven’t written in so long, that I can’t talk about Presidencies without talking about the American President, in fact, one of my Presidents, a girl of two lands, and his promises and his failures.

Morsi did not hold true to his promises and was in a full scale revolt against the causes of the revolution. Does he deserve to be killed for his transgressions, I don’t think anyone is ever to die for a transgression, was he to be deposed, yes, he didn’t belong there in the first place and he betrayed the Egyptian people and the revolution in the name of a group of people who do not represent the whole. He tried to ally with people who would protect him, not the future of this country. But again, I digress.

So, here I am. Four plus years post revolution. I built an acupuncture practice that I hope and seems to be helping people, only they can speak to that as fact or fiction, but I have built a practice. I treat people with every version of the human condition, the ones who would like to procreate and can’t, the ones who have pain and want to resume their regular activities, the ones who just want to stop waking up in the night, I treat them and now they are my reason to be here. They are the reason that I continue to live in this place that can’t see justice, which puts our lives at risk everyday in traffic, with pollution, with water accidents and traffic accidents and sexual harassment. Where it takes me hours to figure out what to wear to work that I can walk across the bridge in; in a land where we are supposed to be, mo7taram, where we are supposed to respect our neighbor. Does that only exist when our neighbor is someone we know? When we can be identified with a time and a place? In public, everyone is fair game? No one needs to have respect for their fellow man? Woman? No one can criticize or even ask the question, so what exactly did you spill into my drinking water and how does it affect me? I have heard of four people in the last week with abscesses (seen two of them). ABCESSES, out of nowhere. WTF?! Is this going around now? People have pus filled growths on them that we can’t talk about because somehow that is political? Is human life no longer valued? Is it not something that can be viewed as having a say in its circumstances, its future?

If you know me, and some of you do, you know these rants come out. I can’t hold them in. I don’t know if they make sense, or hold water, but they are real. I am living in a bubble, yes, a lovely one. I live in a beautiful place (although a bit broken), I work in a beautiful place (with wonderful people), I have friends who hug me and mean it. That is all a blessing and that is not to mention a family that supports me in my insanity of choosing this life, and yet, I still have to ask, WHY? Why would you hang people, citizens of the country to prove a point? Who are you? And what right do you have to take life? I thought we were a land of value, at the very least, value of human life. AT THE VERY LEAST.

So with this, I say, I’m tired of being quiet. I’m tired of not having the conversation. What the FUCK is going on?? And how do we change the course of it because it does not serve the 90 million people that live here, or try to.